I'm not sure if this is because of the cold or whether it's my state of mind, or just the fact that I hate my job, either way I've been sleeping TOO much lately. The normal person is supposed to get around 8-10 hours of sleep each night per some research that was done a while back, but I've found myself sleeping for 11 hours. It seems to have gotten worse since I started writing this, it's like getting out of bed has become a chore.
I've also been grappling with some dark thoughts too since I came across some reminders of my conversations with Liz in my email. I think all the Pidgin logs were stored on my Gateway. It's tempting to take a look at them again but I feel like I would just be ruminating on a bad memory. I want to keep her memory alive but I think I run the risk of sabotaging my own self-worth in the process. It's complicated and frankly I don't want to talk about it but at the same time it's something I need to get off my chest. Yet, I have no one to share these thoughts with. Nobody would understand.
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