The Butterfly Effect.

Recently I came into contact with a net buddy of mine who I hadn't talked to for a good while. He was wondering where I have been, and I told him how I had been so depressed and have become... Somewhat... I want to say withdrawn because of what happened a year ago. But I ended up hearing about his relationship problems. See, he has this girl that he's in love with, and they're about to have kids, but some time ago they weren't on talking terms. Well, I remember how excited he was about her and she about him, and it made me even more depressed to think that that spark had weakened in their relationship, because I looked at it in terms of my own life, and I remember Liz had wanted me to move into her apartment, and I was enthusiastic about that. I didn't want to think that things could possibly go wrong.

What this is leading up to is this; After talking for a bit, he recommended to me a movie called The Butterfly Effect. The movie is about a man, played by (I think) Ashton Kutcher, and he's had these black-outs ever since he was a kid. The weird thing is that when he gets older and studies psychology his memories that were blacked out start coming back to him, and each time he does this the world changes, and he's living in an alternate reality where things happened differently than they did in his actual life. All to save a girl named Kaylee. Well, this happens more than once, each time with increasing frequency, until he's eventually at the point where the journal entries he's been using to keep track of these memories don't exist anymore. So in a last ditch effort to save her he looks at some home movies from when he was a kid, and tells off Kaylee to save her (and his) life.

But that has just made me even more depressed. I think I hate life now. We live in such a hellhole in such a way that bad things happen to good people, and trying to make the world worth living in is a futile effort. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. I know from personal experience...

I think maybe it's time to change the name of this blog. (again)

... Otherwise I'm about to be eating my foot here. So, I play this game called eRepublik, and as far as browser games go, it's actually kinda fun, and it's free to play. It doesn't require a large time commitment, but thing is, some of the missions require that you get people to join under you. Same as some of these PTC sites, except it's a game, not a way to make extra cash. So, thing is, in this game, you get gold for leveling up, or getting certain trophies (such as reaching a certain number of subscribers, getting a certain amount of Strength, working a certain number of days, etc.), and if you have an upline, they earn bonus gold if you earn gold (don't worry, they don't take away from your own gold, so you're fine.) So yeah, there's lot of advantages to building a downline in this game.

Well, one of my friends in the game had this great idea. He turned me on to this "referral circle", and the idea is that anyone who joins this circle gets a special link, and when they use it to tell their friends about the game, they join the circle, and everyone gets referrals from just being a member, so in this way everyone wins, even if they can't get new referrals themselves. Well, I decided to join this circle, since I have had trouble promoting the link, and since I've been added, I figure I should promote the link to this circle since I don't want to feel like I'm just leeching off the more successful players. So, if I've piqued your interest in eRepublik, then here's the link to the referral circle: http://www.yourwinoffice.net/rotator.php?u=eRepublik.